"But my anxious heart is eating up my body, eating up my nerves, eating up my brain. I feel this poison slowly filling my veins - every particle becoming slowly tainted. I am never, never calm, never for an instant. I remember years ago saying I wished I were one of those happy people who can suffer so far and then collapse or become exhausted. But I am just the opposite. The more I suffer, the more of fiery energy I feel to bear it."
Katherine Mansfield, from a diary entry dated June 1915 (via frankie-wolf)
"I like you, but not too much. I don’t want to like anybody too much."
"You tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do, love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love."
“For Women Who Are Difficult to Love,” Warsan Shire (via seabearia)
"I tried to drown my sorrows but they learned how to swim."
how can people fall in love once and be done?
how can people give all there love to one person, their “soul mate”
and think that they truly have experienced LOVE
it is not simple enough to be felt or defined by a relationship between two people
i think it’s ignorant to be content with a single soul
people want happiness and someone to care for them so intensely that they are willing to sacrifice experience and curiousity so that they can be loved
soul-mates do exist, but they can’t possibly be limited to one person
so it is ridiculous to let ONE person let you feel unloved or loved
there are so many different kinds of people with so much to offer
love should never make you feel so content that you crave nothing more and it should not make you sad when it leaves
because love is infinite
love should make you interested and willing to take risks when it goes
it is too vast and can be found in almost anything and anyone, to ever stop
the most interesting people are those who have experienced love in forms that most don’t even see
there is dark love and light love and effortless love and forced love
there is so much this world has to offer in terms of love
so don’t be ignorant and don’t settle for comfort
and don’t be scared when that comfort leaves you
love never stops, people just limit there love to one person because they are afraid of the lonely gap before there next love
but it is the gaps that will make your next love stronger
love never stops
people say that we don’t really discover ourselves until we are thrown out of our comfort zone. I hope I never fully discover myself. I hope I’m always experiencing new things and I hope I never find 100% comfort in a place..only in my mind.
"You have to have a deep realization, and a deep feeling, that no thing has an ego. No thing has a cause, again. There’s no reason for anything to be. No thing really exists. You are not a sinner. You are not an evil person. Your past is dead, forget it. You’re born again, now, and all is glory and joy. This is what it means to be born again, to realize that you exist now, in this moment. Not a moment ago, and never mind what’s going to happen a moment from now, but you exist in this moment as pure intelligence, unqualified love, absolute reality, unconditioned oneness. That’s you. You live in that reality. And again, that sets you free."
"They do not teach you this in school. They do not show you the beauty of existing, they do not show you the wonder of the Earth, they do not show you the unity that human beings are. They show you who is better, who is worse. They show you what they need to show you in order for their system to survive. They do not show you love."